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Day 362: School Prize Giving November 13, 2008

Filed under: Faith, teaching, the Musical — carrieohara @ 10:48 pm

Tonight was prize giving at school and I always feel proud… too much of what we do as teachers, especially in a school like ours (smoothstones and Lily: it still belongs to you both) is moan about our pupils’ shortcomings and rage against the politics involved in inter staff relations.

Tonight was about achievement: our first prize giving in our new state of the art school building: an opportunity to remember that this in an academic year of turmoil our pupils managed to achieve the best GCSE results since the school first amalgamated. Our choir sang two songs from the much typed about show and JG had to pin me to my seat to keep me from leaping about in pleasure: it made me excited for the performances.

The Speakers at these things tend to rate somewhere between truly terrible and mediocre: we occasionally manage words of wisdom…but these are the exception rather than the rule. Tonight we were enthralled by a man of true merit and absolute humanity: who described the teaching staff (of the world and not just Bangor) as ‘instillers of hope’. He talked about the work of ‘his friend’ Desmond Tutu and schools in South African townships which were held together with goodwill, hard work and a hope of a brighter future.

His wife who had a degree in law and one in medicine: but left her own career to be a ‘clergy wife’ spoke eloquently about the invitation; offered her thanks and congratulations with warmth and humour. Typically the wives give out the prizes and remain mute; lobbying the Boss to have a female speaker is a ‘to do’ list item that never gets my attention.

I’m a willing audience member; sitting ready to be entertained, engaged, inspired: rarely do all things happen in one sitting; and rarely do any of us get to feel that we are in the presence of actual greatness.

So tonight I’m grateful for inspiration, I’m grateful for the privileges of my job: an instiller of hope is a title I’ll work hard to live up too.

 

Days 355, 356, 357, 358, 359 and 360 November 11, 2008

Filed under: Music, Work stress, film, friendship, parenthood, teaching, the Musical — carrieohara @ 10:36 pm

So my Obama excitementhas allowed me to split my world into two disparate camps (so much for bipartisanship and the spirit of community in the coming administration…) the naysayers (Here ye Mr QM, the illustrious DG (who I sincerely hope doesn’t read my blogrubbish) and many, many others) and the often times silent ‘yay’sayers, Americans amongst you, who accepted my blog/ email/ facebook message with grace and hope…Go Obama!

But life is what gets in the way when you’re writing a blog…

Thursday/ 355:

Who can remember life when it returns to the mundane? (If something historical happened today Q Monkey: it didn’t happen to me…)

Friday/ 356:

Was grateful that it was Friday and that I took a little time out to re-watch PS I Love You: sometimes I need the emotional comfort of a movie or book that I’ve read or seen before: and a little Gerard Butler can only but brighten up a girl’s Friday night.

Saturday /357:

Dinner with friends of friends and getting to hold not one, not two, not three but four different babies: my gorgeous God-daughter included. It was lovely to be included, to sip wine by the fire and feel both the joy of the early motherhood and that persistent pang of wonder.

The night was punctuated by texts from an old ‘friend’ that made me smile.

Sunday/ 358:

Went to church with Mel (twice): I was only ‘be ready with the bottle’ duty but Baby G was a total cherub; not  sound in either service. I was humbled by the ‘We will remember them’ and a thought provoking sermon…maybe Church of Ireland and the comfort of its rituals is somewhere I should explore further…

Lunch in the Lodge and a Tesco trip with the only girl who can make the latter fun.

G and M remain my rocks and my therapy: to be part of their lives is a blessing worthy of the many 365 mentions and more…

Monday/ 359:

Sleeping in and missing a meeting, a misplaced (a still missing) yet vital notebook, and a chronic rehearsal that made us all doubt the worth of the blood, sweat and hissy fits of the past few months were all surpassed by the news that another baby has arrived to bless our midst. This one was hard fought for; and eagerly awaited. Hope for a life filled with luck, laughter and love!

Tuesday/ 360:

Feeling for once that I was an oasis of serenity (well as close as we Drama queens get) in a tempestuous sea during rehearsals today. My now weekly coffee with DI was its cathartic self; but getting less done (cue the long procrastination masked as a blog) than I need to tonight is something I’ll suffer through and moan about tomorrow…

Tonight’s highlights (one for Vox) discovering ITunes Genius; never was a computer thingymigiggy more aptly named…playlists abound.

 

Day 353: GO OBAMA! November 4, 2008

Filed under: Generosity, Work stress, parenthood, teaching, the Musical — carrieohara @ 10:24 pm

Trying to find the balance between rehearsal and teaching responsibilities is proving stressful and while there is SO SO MUCH still to be done: it was exciting to the point of exhilarating to be on the stage and running with things today. And for the talent, enthusiasm and fun that lies within our cast…

I was in school much earlier than usual to make a meeting; and stumbled upon ever charming and very sexy, SD who I will forever have a harmless crush on. When I asked about his baby, he led me off to his classroom to show me a photograph of this incredibly gorgeous child in an Northern Ireland kit. He told me he would like ‘hundreds of children’ and suggested it was about time I got one of my own…that he thinks this is an acutal possibility got my day of to a smiling start.

I’m grateful for the simple but generous help of two different neighbours today; little things mean so much.

 I’m entirely wrapped up in the American desire for political change:  and have spent tonight writing Theatre Notes with Presidential election coverage as my company. It somehow feels significant, as if one day, someone will ask me; where I was and what I was doing on the night Barack Obama (PLEASE GOD!) got elected President. A shift of global proportions seems imminent…I await the shaking of the earth.

The hard part will be dragging myself away from the TV just as the results are starting to come in…

 

340, 341 and 342 October 25, 2008

Filed under: Simple Pleasures, Social ineptitude, Theatre, Work stress, teaching, the Musical — carrieohara @ 10:54 am

340: Today I had a long anticipated absolute hissy fit: a Dramaqueen reaching into the higher echelons of humiliation : the pupils who bore witness to my moment of madness looked at me with a shock and concern difficult to put into words; but opening this valve on the ‘musical’ pressure cooker was long overdue and somehow massively cleansing.

341: Even though I would have a ‘teach the teacher’s day’ on Friday; this afternoon it felt like the end of half term: I embraced that feeling of freedom; had a take out dinner and a night on the settee purusing my Lonely Planet for Paris…

342: An inspirational trip to the theatre that allowed me to yet again fall a little in love with Belfast; remember the true privileges of my job and realise that in the world of all things Drama I still got a lot to learn…

 

334, 335 and 336 October 17, 2008

Filed under: Simple Pleasures, Social ineptitude, friendship, teaching — carrieohara @ 8:50 pm

334: Queen of Disorganisation strikes back: returned from a rather woeful theatre trip (although it is always good to be out of the classroom with pupils) to find my car in a locked car park: our leading man was collecting his current leading lady and insisted on giving me a lift home. If this wasn’t humiliating enough: I then couldn’t find my door keys; had emptied my handbag: made an ill-timed, poorly executed quip about him discovering something of mine on the backseat and then found the keys in my pocket. Dignity and professionalism are things of the past.

335: An at school meeting where I was smothered in egos and testosterone was only balanced by a night of finding domestic harmony while perusing my Ipod and comfort eating Percy Pigs and M&S cheese.

336: Being quite fabulously reduced to tears by a Yr 12 Drama performance; and a ‘Let’s go for coffee1′ that turned into ‘Do you want to have a glass of wine?’ and finished with a cheese on toast, a little Josh Groban and plans for a weekend away: nothing beats a feelgood Friday.

 

332 and 333 October 14, 2008

Filed under: Social ineptitude, Work stress, friendship, literature, teaching, the Musical — carrieohara @ 8:19 pm

332: Having a truly crappy rehearsal/ttotally unorganised/ highly gruesome work daymade better by a ‘I was wrong, you were wrong, you know I love you anyway’ phone call.Feeling proud of a tutee who has won a scholarship to America for a two week cross-community project (even though I’d nothing whatsoever to do with the award), the pleasure of escaping inside words….

333: The powers that be at school decided today was the day to wake up and read the calendar; and while JC and I have spent too many moments bemoaning our lack of actual, get up of your butt and do something support: the influx of a highly critical audience pre, post and during today’s rehearsal was hard to take.

But grace found me: through the Bangor Academy Old Guard: a frank, honest, we can do this conversation as I gave the wonderful DI a lift home (and the realisation that even at my craziest moments; I do not even begin to understand the stress sheet of the working mother) gaining much needed perspective, the promise of West Wing night (thanks Smoothstones) made all the sweeter by an LT escape plan; and taking the time to text apologies to two of the Old Guard who offered opinions and advice and got a diva response…

I now find myself in that quandry of having so much to do; that I’ve started various things and can’t finish any of them: or begin to prioritise…maybe putting the kettle on is the best place to start?

 

328, 329, 330 and 331 October 12, 2008

Filed under: Drunkeness, Family, Simple Pleasures, food, friendship, teaching — carrieohara @ 8:54 pm

328: Dinner at home was a ‘mid’ week treat I allow traffic and school work to deny me. I got to let myself in; have coffee and do an hour’s marking before Mum came home to make a dinner so fabulous she sent me home with another portion and a recipe. I’d forgotten how calming home cooking and conversation can be.

329: A dinner with an ex-pupil. K was my first Drama star; a girl who taught me more than I taught her: a key member of my first and by far the craziest A-level class I’ve ever taught. She is taking off to Oz for a year and this was goodbye: dinner turned into too much wine (I’m scared to check how many times that phrase has appeared in the last 300 and so days) and an until dawn conversation. I was overwhelmed to see her; and love that she still makes the effort to allow me to be part of her life.

330: My hangovers get worse. I had a much- anticipated, although given that my hearing-aid wasn’t working and that time confusion meant I missed my hair appointment (my vanity is increasing with age)was less eager than I should have been; wedding /30th birthday party. I spent the day somewhere between sleep and wakefulness; and somewhere between my bathroom and the sofa. Managed the shower, but not the dressing and the make-up. I am a crappy friend who cancels way too many things because I’ve no sense of moderation: I didn’t deserve Dermot O’Leary for company last night but was grateful for his sunny, charming presence in my living room.

331: Did a little of the domesticity typically earmarked for Saturday; headed home for more home cooking but am feeling restless…an over hang of my hangover and the sense of a wasted weekend gnawing away at my sense of self. How can it be Sunday night? Can’t decide if I should watch an episode of Spooks on one of the endless repeat type channels or treat myself to the unearned and as yet unwatched pleasure of a second helping of Sex and the City: the movie.